About me: I go by the alias Constantine, but my real name is Kamen Dimitrov (similar to Peter — meaning “stone”). Born in the same year as Diablo 1 was released — 1996, though I predate it by five months or so. When I was a little older Bulgaria was still recovering from socialist restrictions in terms of global connectivity, thus a lot of older software and media could be found later in 2004-2006. While I had contact with many modern games in the PC cafés by then, like Diablo 2, World of Warcraft and such, around when I was 15–16 years old I found the Tristr.am website and installed the game, soon enough I fell in love with it. Since then, I’ve been playing regularly. I have my reasons why, but if it is “nostalgia”, then it’s nostalgia for something I never had or experienced.

Bellow you can see one of the better pictures of me:

While I do enjoy playing the game, I view the time spent on it as more philosophical in nature. I do believe the Diablos atmosphere represents a state of mind, lost in a maze to wander, and while you might keep fighting, reaching the end will only reset the whole thing as the spirit of the Lord of Terror will advance and conquer your soul, thus binding you to that Labyrinth. It’s obvious Nietzsche’s reference in his famous words:

“He who fights too long against dragons becomes a dragon himself; and if you gaze too long into the abyss, the abyss will gaze into you.”

You can’t “win” in this game, that’s why I love it, it’s just a representation of my mind and an everlasting battle for control over my own physical self.

As evident, I love philosophy. It’s one of the few things that made me who I am today, and I love myself regardless of my flaws. I hope one day I can write a book about “The Objectivity and Function of the Human Being.” I have a lot covered already, but writing is not the main focus of my life. I wish to act upon my personal philosophy as I am very greedy for heroism. I’m not ready yet though, so much I can understand.

The Website: I started this project around 2023 shortly after I was diagnosed with schizo-affective disorder. I wanted to be at least somewhat productive as I was in a very dark corner of my psyche. I tried to create a library and archive all things Diablo 1 as it is harder and harder to find quality information about the game online. Many similar websites have been lost to the element of time, but I had many problems along the way. Some of them was existential, others born true disagreement in the community, but I’m here again. Not sure if I’ll keep this up, and/or for how long, but I need to write again, even if it is about some old barren game.

The intent of this website is to look like as if it was made back in 1997-1998, maybe I might add some more moderns aspects, but for the plain text and black backgrounds is something I dig a lot.

The Community: I have a love/hate relationship with our community. For once, the social aspect is quite different from what you would expect online nowadays. The people you’ll meet are not so much an online persona, but rather an actual people that behave and socialize as they would similarly to real life. On the other hand, the percentage of disorders, mental illness and/or substance abuse is record high for some reason, and when it comes to any sort of competition, you can expect to be showered by toxicity till you get sticky. While I dislike certain individuals, I never hated anyone and I only hope for them to fight and conquer their inner demons.

If you wish to join us in the battle of eternal war in both the virtual space and our inner doings you are welcomed to do so here:

Discord – The Horadim.